KupCakeKiller

seriously!

This week could not be any worse! I am beyond pissed off and completely out of patience, which for me…that’s saying a lot. going from my boss telling me i have more patience than she has ever seen…to this! seriously!? first…my mom’s husband had a massive aortic heart rupture and now he is in teh ICU. My mom is a total wreck…then my ex got in an accident and is all sorts of messed up and apparently i was “the last thing he thought about.” seriously!!!! seriously!? do you honestly think you can play me like this!!?! you cannot go out and screw some married woman when you are drunk and think you can have me back! it has been almost 5 months. i do not trust you and i am so sick and tired of being the reliable source in your life! am i not worth a guy to take care of? to sweep off my feet? why the hell do i have to be the one to save the day all the time? i am so sick and tired of taking care of everyone!!! so sick of them!! i am sick of my friends bailing on me. 3xs this week. seriously!!? and talk about the drama!!!! you get your feelings hurt and take it out on me!!?! i did nothing wrong. and then i try to make amends and you ignore my phone call!? ignore me when you see me, blow past me like i don’t exists!? fine. i am done with you and your childish ways. i already had to sit down with you and other people to talk about all the issues we were all having. you said you would communicate. well….you are not and i am past done with it. i am not in jr high anymore. i face my issues and my problems. you wont. so i give up. i guess our friendship means nothing to you. so now it means nothing to me. and i am sick of people treating me a certain way because i am the single one of the group. don’t give me pity. i choose to be single. dont try and set me up. i am capable of finding someone. and dont give me those looks or words of “you will find someone. don’t you worry.” trust me. im not worrying. i don’t worry. and then work. i am sick of doing the job of two people and only being paid for one person. i am sick of baby-sitting this girl because she has no idea what to do. she doesn’t follow what i tell her to do anyways. i dont want to deal with her anymore. when did this all happen!?! everything was great. life was so good. why is everyone messing up my life all of the sudden. next week has to get better. there is no way it can be this bad again. i cant believe how seriously bad this week was. STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!